I keep running. I have now done three 5K runs in 3 months. I am at the gym 5 dYsfunction a week and can physically do more Ghana ever before.
However, with no restriction and a delay in fill appointments I have not lost anything. I'm disappointed in myself and need to take back my motivation. I know where the problem lies and I have not done anything about it yet. I have been making poor food choices. I do have a fill scheduled for tomorrow so I am hoping for a motivation boost from that.
I should be overjoyed that my most recent race was at an average of 12:30 mile. My first mile was 11:30 which is the fastest mile I have done in my whole life. I am proud but I have that nagging monster yelling at me for all of my craptacular food choices lately.
this is it though. This is the reason I choice surgery. My fitness level shows my ability to be dedicated to exercise, it is the food that has trapped me in fat for so long. I can run a 5K in my sleep but I can't put that darn fork down!!! Why can't my willpower transfer across all areas of my life? I did the right thing with this surgery and it is helping me keep these demons in check since I can't do it alone.
